i found out today that baby G and i have thrush. this could be good news because it could explain some of the breastfeeding pain (eg the shooting pains i get for hours after feeding) and the treatment could mean that things get a bit easier. last night during a particularly frustrating and painful feed i almost decided to give up breastfeeding (again) but of course in the light of day i decided to give it another go and things went a bit better. i guess that as long as there are some good feeds i will keep going. i won't be sorry for this to all be over though and i hate feeling that way because it's like i'm wishing away the first year of my baby's life. i wish i could spend more time enjoying her at this age.
9:19 p.m. - May 22, 2008
it might be my imagination but i think the breastfeeding is getting slightly easier. it would be nice if it wasn't my imagination.
3:10 p.m. - May 15, 2008
we are doing our first roadtrip with baby G this weekend. it should be interesting to see how we manage to get all her stuff in the car as we need to take the pram and her moses basket plus about 3 outfits for each day we are away, millions of nappies, all the sterilizing equipment/bottles (just in case), numerous sheets & blankets etc etc. thank god we are only going overnight.
it turns out that the cg and i aren't quite the social lepers that i thought we might be. we've had emails this week from 2 of the couples we met on the nct course asking if we would like to meet up. both couples are really nice so it would be great to see any of them.
7:20 a.m. - May 15, 2008
it's 2.15am and i've been up for an hour and a quarter feeding the monkey which would be fine except that she is still wide awake and giving no indication that either of us will be going back to sleep any time soon. boo!!
2:17 a.m. - May 14, 2008
one thing i've learnt in the last couple of weeks is that every day with a baby is different. for example, the night before last i got no sleep whatsoever and spent all of yesterday feeling like crap while last night G only woke up twice and only wanted relatively short feeds so today i've felt great (despite another bout of sore nipples and the fact that G has both vomited and pooped on my clothes).
my baby is beautiful. she has big eyes that stare at me and make me love her and want to protect her. every day has new challenges but every day i get more used to having her around.
3:47 p.m. - May 13, 2008
from the moment you get pregnant, everyone keeps telling you that when you have the baby the only way to get any sleep is to sleep when the baby sleeps. they tell you not to do chores and to forget about housework. i liked the sound of this. the problem is that i've been awake since 2am (it's now 3pm) and baby G will only sleep if she is in my arms. i've tried putting her in the moses basket about a million times, i also took her for a walk in the pram but she is having none of it. if she wasn't so god damn cute i'd be sticking a return to sender label on her butt and taking her to the post office.
3:02 p.m. - May 12, 2008
baby G decided that she didn't want to sleep at all last night which meant that i didn't sleep either. i did get back into bed a couple of times but was out again within about 30 minutes. so basically i was up from 2am (after going to bed at 11.30pm). she is sleeping now but of course i can't because we got a message about an hour ago saying that our landlord is selling the house and the purchaser wants to look at it this morning - which means we have been running around like headless chickens trying to make it look clean and tidy. the good news is that the new owner doesn't want to live in the house so they will be keeping us on as tennants. i think i would have just fallen to my knees and wept if they had said we have to move out!!
11:01 a.m. - May 12, 2008
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