i woke up at 4am. the cg was snoring and baby G was kicking up a storm. for the first time since we moved here from bristol i couldn't sleep. i had a million things swirling around in my head such as: where was i going to breastfeed in the middle of the night and was i going to be cold and lonely; was i ever going to get to the point where i can drive a car to anywhere i want without even thinking about it; and, would my sister-in-laws almost step-children be there this weekend and should i buy them easter eggs. i ended up getting out of bed because in addition to having trouble getting back to sleep i also feel kind of sick.
4:59 a.m. - March 18, 2008
i was going to make a lemon loaf but we are almost out of milk so i have to wait for the cg to out and get some. i could take a walk myself and pick up a pint but i have a very real fear that while i might easily make it to the shop, getting home could be a bit trickier. it has rained and poured for the last few days and the river across the road has burst its banks and is currently twice as wide as it usually is. i'm not concerned about the flooding since no one else around here is and they know a lot more about living in the countryside than a city girl like me does.
i had my final ladies only antenatal class today. we talked a bit about how things will be in the first few weeks and months after the baby is born. we talked about parenting methods and what books we had read on the subject. i admitted that i hadn't read any and had no intention of reading any and that my parenting methods were going to be a combination of instinct and common sense. i don't think the cg and i would be happy following someone elses baby rules and i don't see us abandoning structure altogether and going all hippy dippy. we will come up with a system that works for us and then hope and pray that it works for baby G too. i got a lift home from one of the other girls at the sessions. she is due the same day as me and planning to have her baby in the same hospital. we had a nice chat on the way back - maybe i'll make a new friend.
2:50 p.m. - March 17, 2008
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