it was just before 7am when i crept back into bed. the CG wrapped his arms around me and i fell asleep almost immediately. 9 minutes later the bloody alarm went off for work. such is life.
i felt quite peaceful when i was walking into work. i had one or two panics about the future when i got into work but currently i seem to have things under control. i went to see the office manager and told her i was unhappy about my new desk area. she was quite understanding and assured me it was a temporary situation. i'm glad i plucked up the courage to complain. yesterday i was so down i didn't have the heart plus i'm english and we just aren't in the same league as north americans when it comes to complaining about something. as for my new wage, that's currently unknown and will probably still have to be battled out. in the meantime i'm preparing myself for the new job by inviting useful people out for lunch and booking myself on relevant courses. i also intend on buying a whole bunch of new outfits to boost my confidence. as much as i'd like to things to remain the same, they are going to move forward and the best thing i can do is make sure i'm in control of the move.
1:33 p.m. - April 08, 2004
i've been awake since 3am and no amount of tossing and turning was going to get me back to sleep so i got out of bed for tea and relic hunter on the tv. i am so going to feel like shit tomorrow at work but then i was going to anyway and at least i'm doing this on my terms.
so far the news of my new job position has had 2 repsonses: "so you are going to be working for us. i couldn't believe it when i heard. why would you want to do this job" and "you are going to have to be tough and stand up for yourself with those people". i'm wondering if i should just pre-order the depression medication to get it over with.
the only good thing i have in my thoughts right now is email from my sister [in law]. she doesn't know how perfect her timing was.
4:11 a.m. - April 08, 2004
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